Friday, November 9, 2012

Feeling to write

 It is been awhile i did not post any expression about my life.  Everyday when i woke up i felt something is inside  missing  and not right i need to change the way i feel or else i might turn my self to crazy women. Today when i try to search an excitement from the news feed  facebook, my eyes catch some an inspirational quote from the page that i like before. Here is the quote

maybe not now,
but someday

mybe not that way,
but some way

mybe not her,
not him
not that one
but someone

keep walking,
keep feeling,
keep learning,
keep believing,

that someday,
will finally
be your day,,,,

Monday, April 30, 2012

In the name of Allah...

chek..chek..sound system. Today i will start my first day as a dentist. Moment i hv been waiting seen i got accepted in University Trisakti. After going through rough theory year and heart broken OSCE month Alhamdulillah i made it. After all these years i just realised that succes does not come easily. Its remind me old days. My teachers always said hard  work pays. I  will try my very best to be a great dentist.. till then need to get ready for my shift soon 2pm-7pm....

                                           something to think about

Monday, March 19, 2012

way to go..

On 19 march 2012 i am officially starting my pandas=preclinic. Means in a couple of days i will enter the moment i have been waiting so long which is clinical years. Before that i have to get through OSCE which required me to master all materials that i have learnt this 3 and half years.Sincerely i am not kind of study person. i kind of last minute study as i love procastinate my work. When the time comes i will all out. The problems is this is not helping it is because as we all know hard work pays. Success did not come to us without enough effort.

In my head i keep thinking am i ready to be a dentist? How can i treat patient with empty brain. Sometime i feel i cannot breath . My brain keep spinning thinking what shoud i do ..i barely could sleep. Actually what makes me realise that i have been left behind when i sit besides someone that her head full of treasure. From that moment i fell ashame of myself. I do not know what i have been doing for the last 3 years. I am not sure whether leaving UM to come here is the right choice or what. A lot things have happened this past 3 years that absolutely changing me into not so me anymore. Yes i am 100 percent changing. I barely now myself anymore............please god send me your guidance. I feel so hopless right now..